through with you

oh boy. we've had times, so wonderful that i dreamed about eternity. to hope that they might last forever and ever.
see who was wrong there.
yeah. i'm feeling pity. for both of us. since we had unforgettable times. friendship and curious looks. whatever it might have been. it's over. i learned to be a bit more realistic and confident. and you made it obvious that you didn't care.

and that made it.

for me.

you could have said or done what you wanted and i'm sure i would have forgiven you - like i always did. but your ignorance and your few words. It wasn't important to me. that was what hurt the most after all those hours, words and looks. and it created a scar that probably won't ever heal. not according to everybody. just for my relation to you. i am an open and forgiving person, but this time you screwed up royally. and i won't treat you any better from now on. you just don't deserve. you could have had it all, but you refused. so that's it. i'm through with you. and i'm certain that it's for quite a while.

that's just the course of life and love and friendship

 

Somebody That I Used To Know

Gotye feat. Kimbra

Now and then I think of when we were together
Like when you said you felt so happy you could die
Told myself that you were right for me
But felt so lonely in your company
But that was love and it's an ache I still remember

You can get addicted to a certain kind of sadness
Like resignation to the end
Always the end
So when we found that we could not make sense
Well you said that we would still be friends
But I'll admit that I was glad that it was over

But you didn't have to cut me off
Make out like it never happened
And that we were nothing
And I don't even need your love
But you treat me like a stranger
And that feels so rough
You didn't have to stoop so low
Have your friends collect your records
And then change your number
I guess that I don't need that though
Now you're just somebody that I used to know

Now and then I think of all the times you screwed me over
But had me believing it was always something that I'd done
And I don't wanna live that way
Reading into every word you say
You said that you could let it go
And I wouldn't catch you hung up on somebody that you used to know...

But you didn't have to cut me off
Make out like it never happened
And that we were nothing
And I don't even need your love
But you treat me like a stranger
And that feels so rough
You didn't have to stoop so low
Have your friends collect your records
And then change your number
I guess that I don't need that though
Now you're just somebody that I used to know

I used to know
That I used to know

Somebody...

remembering the weekend

because i guess i'm not the only one who wants to say THANK YOU! to everyone who decided to attend our wonderful birthday party last saturday night. VIVA LA FIESTA. Anyway, it was the best birthday party i had in, well, ever! it was just amazing. one of the best nights of my young life and probably the best this year. although i wouldn't mind a similar party soon again, i'm happy and content that the stressful planing and organizing time is over. the night passed far too quickly, but this was to expect. and i'm also grateful that so many beautiful and brilliant people chose the right party. Thank you from the depth of my heart. ♥

with a thrill of joy

'cause from time to time we get to know that life - especially with the people we love and because of them - is not as hard as we might think. it always turns out to be different than we would ever expect. and this is what makes it so thrilling.

 Avicii - Levels

chocolate, sparkling wine & some gossip

what could be a better way to spend a free friday night alone than with some delicious chocolate, a glass of sparkling wine and another episode of Gossip Girl? The perfect way to relax after all the party & talking nights which came up recently. as great and awesome as they are - from time to time you just need a perfectly beautiful night for yourself. and i'm enjoying mine so far.

lovely quotes

and one special person should now be aware of the notes she received. and the letter underneath the notes.
love you, darlin' :**

but for sure there are a million more quotes i'd like to share with you and the world. but sadly there's to little time. but be prepared, you for sure will get more out of my person quote stock. my beloved book in which all my favouritesare written down. for eternity.

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or contact me via this site, twitter or whatever other way you might find ;**

las vacaciones

sure, we're having holidays. or vacation, whatever you may prefer. but still there's the old pressure in the background - 'cause for sure our teachers aren't content with just having us off and relaxing. nooo. would be far to comfortable. no. we have to work. a lot of biology. literature research. german stuff. and a weird book for english which takes a longer time to be read than i'm used to. arthur miller's world famous 'death of a salesman'. not bad, though. just slightly confusing.
and .. well. in addition to the school stuff there's a bunch of things that have to be done for our party next week. location change and purchasing on top of everything. and a lot of meetings and driving around. hell, i need 4 more weeks off - minimum. but alright. one week to go. then school till christmas. with 8 exams. woohoo. anticipation. how much i hate responsibility from time to time..

 Robin Sparkles - Let's Go To The Mall

But sometimes we just shouldn't take life all so seriously and have some fun. otherwise life wouldn't be what it is: 

worth living and wonderful.